Notes to Self...and whoever's listening

Then Jesus said the them, "Suppose you have a friend, an you go to him at midnight and say, 'Friend, lend me three loaves of bread; a friend of mine on a journey has come to me, and I have no food to offer him.'  And suppose the one inside answers, 'Don't bother me.  The door is already locked, and my children and I are in bed.  I can't get up and give you anything.'  I tell you, even though he will not get up and give you the bread because of friendship, yet because of your shameless audacity he will surely get up and give you as much as you need.  So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened."  Luke 11:5-10 I have read this verse quite a few times, but this time the phrase "shameless audacity" stuck out to me.  The dictionary definition of audacity is "a w...

We all have friends.  Some are friends that may have been with you for a lifetime.  Some you met in high school, college or even your job.  Some were made by going through a similar life event.  Some were accidental.  Some have let you down and no longer make it to friendship status. But we all have friends.  And we all need them.  Each of my friends brings a unique quality to my life that I love so much and need so desperately.  Not each one is on the same "friendship level", though.  I have friends that know my deepest struggles, my biggest life adventures, my craziest pet peeves.  Others are my extremely funny ones that I can go to when I'm down knowing THEY will bring me back up.  And, honestly, some are surface friends.  More cordial acquaintances, if you will.  But each have an importance in my life. Jesus had 12 very close friends the Bible refer to as his disciples.  Those men walked for three years wi...

I had a mini-meltdown last night.  Yep, a seemingly simple decision about whether or not I should get involved in something left me in a puddle.  Now, I'll give you that I'm an emotional person.  But, I'm pretty good about decisions.  Sheesh, I'm almost always the one who has to decide where we're gonna eat in our family or we'd starve!  😂  But this one I couldn't handle.  It wasn't life or death.  It just had some time sensitivity to it.   I was messaging with my sister after I decided that I just wasn't able to do what had been presented to me.  I told her that I just seem to be flailing on everything I should be doing and that was why I kinda just gave up and have been chilling on the couch each night with my new Netflix obsession.  (See my blog post from a few days ago for more on that.) She reminded me that this time of year that it is common to feel like a failure (again, see that last blog post - and she hasn't even...

Anyone else feeling it yet?  2018 is 10 days old and I already feel stuck under the weight of thoughts and feelings of inadequacy.  Part of it is advertising that is mean to do just that.  From stores wanting me to organize my entire home, to diet plans and fitness centers screaming that now is the time, to even car commercials showing me why now is a perfect time to get a new car, I'm overwhelmed. I decided last month that I would try to keep my January not too busy to just recoup from the craziness of the last few months.  So really, this isn't necessarily a new feeling, but I think just the calendar turning over to a brand new year brings anxiety and those feelings like another year has passed and nothing changed in me. Before you send me that quick message or text telling me I'll be okay or try to encourage me, please know I'm good.  It's just that time of year when things swirl in my brain and make me tired.  Know how I've fought it this year?...