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Speaking of in His time...

Yesterday I talked about timing and how all things in my life were coming together for His greater purpose.  Today I am going to add to that post just a little more.

 I have many dreams that remain "unfulfilled" at this time.  Some are unfulfilled because I haven't done what is necessary to make them happen quite yet.  Some are unfulfilled because God hasn't seen fit to bring them to fruition OR He's still working on me to let those dreams go because He has bigger ones waiting for me.

 So, one big dream or desire I have always held in my heart is that of wanting to be married. And every September as another birthday nears, I get sad realizing another year has come and gone and I'm still as single as the day I was born.  Yep, never had a boyfriend, never been on a date, never really been asked OUT on a date (yeah, there are 2 guys that tried to sort of ask, but crashed and burned and were NOT the ones for me anyway).   I'm including a picture of my journal this morning, not for sympathy, but to be open and transparent.  (Please excuse the typos and messiness - it was early!)


Back to waiting...it's HARD.  It hurts.  It's lonely.  It's frustrating.  It's upsetting.

 But, it also shows and creates strength.  It helps you get laser-focused on where the Lord wants you to be.  And it creates a reliance on the Lord.  And BOY do I rely on Him! :)

 In the longing to be married, many have told me that I was better off not married or I wasn't missing anything.  I told a group of my friends at dinner recently that when someone tells me that, it hurts so much.  I wonder if someone would say that to a woman longing for a child.  Anyway...it's still a dream, a wish.  But, along with this dream, I've also started praying that if it is NOT a dream to be fulfilled for me, that God take the desire from me.  So far, it's still there.

 I love verse 24: The Lord is my portion, therefore I will wait for Him.  HE provides for my needs.  In the end, He is actually ALL I need.  He is so good, so faithful to those whose hope lies in Him.  And the Bible also says He is not slow in keeping His promises.

 He isn't slow.  But I get impatient.  Waiting is no fun.  But, often those things that we wait the longest for are the sweetest gifts...

 What are YOU waiting for?
"I remember my affliction and my wandering, 
the bitterness and the gall.
I will remember them, 
and my soul is downcast within me.
Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed,
for His compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is Your faithfulness.
I say to myself, 'The Lord is my portion;
therefore I will wait for Him.
The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him,
to the one who seeks Him;
It is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the Lord."

Lamentations 3:19-26

    



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